I recently realized as I was thinking of something to write about that all my life I have never asked for anything and have been without. And I am tired of it. Why should I go without and not have anything? What is the point?
It’s not as if I don’t have anything, but it always feels like a struggle all the time. When I grew up at eighteen I moved out and went to work for a bank and have always had a job. I have always had what I needed but was never happy. Why should I struggle?